October 01 2014, 03:35 PM

I am indeed confused. To an insane degree.
I will try to sort out my thoughts here.
I know more about the Bible than most people- and not just most average people, but most Christians I know. I know more about the rules and facts than many of them and I have even done research into some of the lines I was concerned about, gaining knowledge about translations and all of that.
After trying to open my mind to that kind of thinking- and believe me, I tried very, very hard- I have concluded that I do not believe in the Bible. It is not the true word of the Creator. Have you ever really looked at that? It just does not make any sense in any regard, and no one has been able to give an argument in its favor in all my days. It is full of contradictions, errors, and utter impossibilities. And I wanted to try and understand. I wanted that very badly. But I can’t pretend anymore that I don’t think the Bible is complete nonsense.

Slowly, as I learn and understand, I find my path from before was exactly where I was supposed to be; as with everything I learn to be false, I look for the parallel, and it lies within what I before believed. It lies within the book I’ve been keeping. I am still firm in my belief of a creator and hierarchy of divine entities that interact with us. And after all, sin is nothing but True Evil, and True Evil is nothing but the pain that makes life difficult. But the Bible has it very wrong and the Christian god is not the God I have known. Sometimes I wonder if it’s not even the god the Christians have known. The true one is all-loving. The god in the Bible, you see, is not. Not at all. And that is not truth.

I have Christian friends and coworkers. I do not want to upset them. But I know for a fact that they do not have seriously extended knowledge of the Bible that would make it possible to bring up these concerns and explain why I am pulling back again.

I want my truth back, and I want my path back. I want the fascination of spirituality back. I deserved it.

I need some guidance and help. I don’t know what to do.

September 15 2014, 12:46 AM
  • Shadow and Shadow Adapted
  • Soldier of Aftermathland (Contained and Unleashed)
  • Requiem (Grounded, Reverent, and Three Eyes Blind)
  • Supernova and Supernova Air
September 14 2014, 12:37 PM
September 12 2014, 11:55 PM
teacakeart:

A little selection of the things I’ve been working on lately with @incakewetrust for @houseofild :) We hope to have the first lot of stuff up in our Etsy shop in a week or so! In the meantime, follow @houseofild :D This pic shows examples of the container candles (scented, all natural soy wax), garnished magical pillar candles, crystal jars, all natural beeswax spell candles & a sample of the wooden divination tools we will have available soon. When we have our stock ready, we will post more product shots & info on @houseofild. I’m excited 😁 #houseofild #handmade #candles #crystals #divination #magick #occult #metaphysics

teacakeart:

A little selection of the things I’ve been working on lately with @incakewetrust for @houseofild :) We hope to have the first lot of stuff up in our Etsy shop in a week or so! In the meantime, follow @houseofild :D This pic shows examples of the container candles (scented, all natural soy wax), garnished magical pillar candles, crystal jars, all natural beeswax spell candles & a sample of the wooden divination tools we will have available soon. When we have our stock ready, we will post more product shots & info on @houseofild. I’m excited 😁 #houseofild #handmade #candles #crystals #divination #magick #occult #metaphysics

September 12 2014, 11:53 PM

malkuth2kether:

The issue with occultism in the west is it becomes a science. So much time is spent on the details that the picture is lost. It becomes occult-science devoid of the pure ascension-based notion of spiritualism that it was founded on. One needs no tools or temple, merely an open heart and mind.

We can loose ourselves to the point of desiring true control and manipulation of all things. The magician does not control the elements for personal gain because there is nothing to gain. When one sends forth the winds, it is their breath they control. When they send forth the waves, it is their own being that bends. When they send forth the flames, it is their soul they set ablaze. When one sends forth the dust, we realize that earth is a reflection of the spirit.

Being a magician isn’t about being a physicist in regards to occultism. Being a magician is using the laws of the universe to prepare ourselves for the single true initiation. That initiation is merely the realization that there is no control, no chaos, no form, no formless.

September 12 2014, 09:35 PM
September 08 2014, 09:20 PM

Reminder of the Supermoon tonight!!!

September 08 2014, 09:20 PM

industrial-illusions:

Charge your rocks and crystals tonight!

September 08 2014, 09:12 PM

the-darkest-of-lights:

This mornings altar.

Lotus Flower